Friday, February 26, 2010


Just this once- just once more-

Don't give up on me.

You Are My Insomnia

You keep me awake at night with your possibilities of things that will never happen.

It Takes Only Two Words

But still...

Two worlds that can mean the world.

The Nature Of Loyalty

My loyalty faltered when I found yours had long before.

And still, I was too late to escape unburned.

The Generic Storyline

The story of you and me is pretty basic-

A beginning, a middle, and, too soon, an end.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

It's Like Telephone, But Oh So More Deadly

I never worried about where my words went after I said them.

And then one day, I followed them.

Now I don't say anything at all.

It's Not Grade Three Anymore.

Just because I don't want to talk to you doesn't mean I want to hear your words come out of someone else's mouth.

What The Adults Don't Know

We don't tell the adults because they just wouldn't understand.

They'd want to try to fix it, not knowing it's unfixable. Not knowing that we like it better broken.

If Only You Weren't Scared I'd Find A New Star To Love

How am I supposed to see the stars if you're always standing in the way?

So Blind To The Stars I Am By You

Without you, I am so blue.

But with you, I am a blue as dark as a moonless nights' sky.

Yes, I Did Once Think You Were Perfect

They ask how you can hate someone after so many years.

It's because you see exactly who they are, and after so many years, who they are disgusts you.

It's Hard Not Taking For Granted

Did I betray you by believing you'd be here forever?

Monday, February 22, 2010

Careful What You Wish For

All I ever wanted was you to pay attention to me. To care. To love me like you should.

And now you do. And I wish you didn't.

Everything You Are

You're the reason for my sigh.

You're the thought behind my stare.

You're the word upon my lips.

You're the regret in my tears.

Exclusive Tree House Rights

When we were younger, you made a sign that said "No Girls Allowed."

So I became one of the guys.

Now that we're older, you've put up a sign "No Boys Allowed."

It's More Complicated Than You Think

I blame you. You blame me.

We both think we did right. We both know we did wrong.

Maybe They Didn't Know What The Truth Was

All of the song writers, they got it wrong.

It's not like losing a friend. It is losing a friend.

It's not your fault. It's our fault.

I'm not sorry. I just wish you were.

What If I Reacted Differently?

It's hard to wonder if you'd still love me if I wasn't her.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Fragile Dreams

It's a fragile dream- a snowflake, a thin crystal orb, a twice-broken heart.

But I believe in it wholeheartedly, because if I don't, I'll never give it a chance.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Time Will Leave Me Behind

I'll be a pariah of time so I can stay in this moment forever.

The Piranhas Will Gobble Me Up

You told me it couldn't be done.

But now I'm a fallen star, and I couldn't be happier.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Me and You, We're 1 in 2

I could have been a statistic.

But you pulled me out of the numbers, you gave me a face and a future.

The Cynics All Adore You

You ask me when I became so cynical.

I reply that you're the one who showed me forever is a dreamer's lie and that happily ever afters are only for the written word (and only sparingly, even then.)

How We Dance With Fire

Somehow, you see me as instinctive and impulsive.

Somehow, you fail to notice the hours I spend mulling over every decision. You fail to notice how many times I swing the cage door wide, only to shut it again. You fail to notice the calculated timing of everything I try to accomplish.

Somehow, you got me mixed up with someone who dances for their enjoyment, when I'm really the one who spends hours perfecting my routine before I show the world.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

For Once, I Love You Because I Want To, Not Because I Have To

Because you are family, and it's not about having to love you, it's about wanting to love you.

And trust me, I do.


No, I'm not 'cracked up to be' anything;

Because I'm not broken.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

What We Risk Now

What would we risk if we  didn't know everything would be okay in the end?

What would we throw away if there was no guarantee it would return?

Not Everything Tastes Like Poison

It wasn't harmful, until it killed us.

Failed Future Plans

Sometimes it's not the memories that hurt so much- it's the promise of what would have came but won't anymore.

Made and Kept

There's the promises we make and the promises we keep.

The former has a list infinitely longer.

Trying To Be Blind To You

If I turn off the lights, maybe I won't recognize the memories I trip over.

If I cover my eyes, maybe I won't match the pain my hand feels to you.

If I hold my breath, maybe I won't happen to repeat the words you told me so long ago.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

The Secrets That Aren't So Secret

It's hard not to know the secrets you've been keeping when you've told everyone, and everyone has told me.

BFFFLFSDIGTRDidIGetThatRight *High Five*

We were once so much more than Best Friends.

We were Best Friends Forever For Life Fo' Shizzle DIGTR? Did I Get That Right? *High Five*

And now we're nothing.

My Fingers Barely Brush The Blade

There once was a time I'd do anything to keep you from hurting. Even when you stabbed me in the back, I pleaded for your safety.

But the knife is getting rusty with the blood. The painkillers have worn off. Despite my sacrifices, your hand still pushes the knife further.

I'm sure if I could reach the knife now, I would kill you with it.

In My Heart Lies Cobwebs and Fire

Take a step back. Move your scissors away from my heart strings. Don't you see how dangerous this is? Don't you see the tangle they're in?

One snip, one cut, will send the whole thing to unravel, and my heart will go with them.

Where Fingertips Barely Touch

Time keeps us apart, but our hearts string us together.

The Truth About You and I

The ending was a promise. It was the living that was the lie.

Teetering on New Feet

Tearless. Indifferent. Smiles. Laughs.

Baby steps.

I Trusted You

The curse of the trusting is that even when we know it's a lie, we trust that they would lie better than that.

Confusing Memories

Smile at your sad memories- they won't know what to do with it.

Monday, February 15, 2010

What it Shouldn't Be

I trust you, therefore I trust myself.


Smile at the happy memories, even if they're sour now.

Then they won't hurt so bad. It's all about mindset.

The Steps Are Slick With Lies Covering Truths

It's all about learning to lie.

Perfect that, and then you'll make it to the top.

Friday, February 12, 2010

The Words Are Clogging My Lungs

I'm suddenly silent, because there's no one left to listen.


Tell me what you want, and then I'll tell you what we've got.

Strength's Portraits

When strength is both laughing and crying, screaming and being silent, knowledgeable and ignorant, whole and shattered, how do you figure out how to be strong yourself?

Thursday, February 11, 2010

You Were Expecting a Happy Ending, Huh?

I close my eyes, and when I open them, it's the same wall as before. And I don't know what to do.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Why I Don't Regret

What you've got to realize is that for everything lost, there's something gained. For everything wrong, there is something right. For every mind that says no, there's a heart that says yes.

And this is why I don't miss you. This is why I don't regret.

Bend and Break

You say you were asking me to bend. I disagree.

You were asking me to break.

The Difference Between Shadows

There's shadows in in front of me, but there's deeper shadows behind me. A light might banish the shadows onwards, but I know it won't banish those backwards.

Shadows That Hunt You

You know it's getting bad when you're running away from the shadows chasing behind you.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Memories to make the Future

If only the memories would go on forever without delay.

Sunny Days

Remember the days we'd lounge with out faces upturned to the sun?

Do those days hurt you as much as they hurt me, now?

What It Means To Be Queen

Her chin won't move a fraction. Her eyes stare straight ahead. For this world, a tear will not be shed.

She is a queen, through and through, even if her castle's walls have been destroyed and her armies decimated.

Unconditional Belief

I believe in you, even if no one else does. Even if everyone else does.


I like to think you miss me too...

Return To Sender

I want to say thank you...

But I don't know what address to put on the letter.

One Day, Your Name Will Be In Lights

I'll be waiting to hear from you.

If only I knew your name.

The Better Question

Today I asked myself what you would say, and became a better person for it.

Thank you.

What You Are

You are lucky, beautiful, smart, kind, creative, compassionate, loving, wonderful, and magical. I hope you know that now.

The Golden Life

Just to let you know, you have the life I dream about even now.

Won't You Come Back?

I miss the girl I hardly knew.

The Circumstance of Words

In any other circumstance, we might have been enemies.

But through words, we became something like best friends.

I Feel We Have a Connection

I miss you, even though I don't know you.

Dreams That Make You Cry

I had a dream about you.

One you'll never know I had...

What You Say

What you say can never be unsaid.

Even if it was a whisper in the wind, the wind has caught those words in it's wisps and cannot let them go.

What You Write

What you write, it can't be taken back.

Even if you burn the paper, the ashes know what you wrote.

Trying to Be You without a Photograph to Consult

I miss you, even if we were never 'friends.'

I want you back, because at least with you here, I had a goal of who I wanted to be.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Two Suns

And sometimes, you need to be your own sunshine even if there's one already.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

No Other Assurances

"All I need to know is that I'm something you'll be missing"

How To Tell You

I don't know how to speak to you, to talk to you and tell you how I feel.

Do I tell it to your photo on my phone? Your name upon a paper? Your ashes in a box?


Yes, I'm broken.

But that doesn't mean I can't be repaired.

What You Did... Just Know It Hurts

I'll forget you until I can remember you without crying.

Curse Those Eyes Of Yours

I was okay, really.

Until you happened to look my way.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Goodbyes in Spring

I have to say good bye while the sun is still shining.

Because if I don't, I'll go through winter thinking I should keep holding on till spring, and I'll never say it.

Given A Chance

Given a chance, I'll no doubt mess it up.

Given another, I'll no doubt do better than anyone ever could.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Want Me There

Say what I will, I don't want you back.

I just want you to want me there, by your side.

Being Family

You don't just stop being part of a family- you either never were or you always will be.

Take Two

It's not that I don't want to. It's that I refuse to.


Waarom, miksi, por qué, γιατί, почему, hvorfor, varför, warum, لماذا.

No matter how you say it, I can't understand. 

The Connection Between Your Heart and My Life

If I cut you out of my heart, will my life begin to heal?

What Will You Love Me For?

If I try to be everything I'm not, will you love me for everything I am?

Which Why Fits

Tell me all the reasons why, and we'll figure out which one fits.

What Did You Suspect?

What? Did you expect them to wait for you? To miss you so much they'd never move on?

Did you expect them to come back, even after so long? After you said for them to just continue on?

Words to Save Myself

'I never want to see you again' isn't as strong of a phrase as you think.

If I never see you again, I can forget you, and imagine the fingerprints you left on my heart yours.

The Missing Words You Don't Care To Hear

And as much as it hurts me to type these words, I love you, I'll miss you, I never want you back.

Still Family

You can say it all you want, but they're still your family.

Even if you were just adopted through another.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Conflicting Opinions.

I have nothing to say to you.

I have everything to say to you.

The Downside of Meeting New People

The secrets, the lies, the scandals.

If only we didn't meet so many people, maybe all this would never have happened.

Maybe we'd still be happy, all of us. Instead of each of us being frayed, cracked and broken.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

And If You Did...

And if I did grow my wings,

If I did soar above you,

What would you do then?

Don't Let Me Fall

You told me you'd never let me go, you'd never let me fall.

But now my hand is slipping, and your fingers are unwinding from mine. I find myself viewing the world as I plummet to the ground.

It's beautiful, but I've had no time to grow my wings.

The ground is inevitable.

The Big Top

It's hard trying to learn how to walk the tightrope when you can't trust the net.

More Than A Hero

I'll be more than your hero- I'll be your death.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The Sun & Moon

I'll be my own sun, I'll brighten my own day.

And I'll be the moon as well, while I'm at it- so I can brighten my night too.

Forgiveness Ran Away

Most of the things we did, we did because we knew we'd be forgiven.

How do you feel now that forgiveness is not an option?

Or do you believe that, sooner or later, forgiveness will come running back, begging to be within your crossed arms?

Pick your Poison

"Choose, him or me!"

It's like picking my poison.

And you wonder why I can't decide.

Memories with a Knife

It's the memories that we thought we'd cherish forever that will hurt us the most.

Hear Me Now?

It's the voice that speaks that is heard.

And yet, so often people think it's the other way around.